Rain, Rain Go Away

It's getting dark and I'm getting worried that the rain is going to come sooner rather than later.  Normally, not a big deal....I love rain.  However, we are supposed to take the kids to the carnival tonight and once it starts raining, it's not supposed to stop for a few days.  Carnival is only on until Saturday, and I'd feel so sad if the kids missed the whole thing.  They really, really enjoy it.

I'm pretty wiped today.  I'm still feeling a ridiculous amount of pain in my right shoulder.  I had my post op appointment and he swore he wasn't near any nerves, and felt two huge muscle knots in my back and clavicle area, but I have to tell you, it feels more than muscular.  What it is, I don't know, but I do know that by this time of the day, I cannot lift my right arm up.  I can't pick up my 2 year old, which  means I definitely can't pick up my 4 year old.  I can't reach with my right arm to get the dishes out of the cabinets, can't carry a laundry basket.  It's ridiculous.  I'm not used to being useless and it's pissing me off.  I stopped taking the percocet because it made me nauseous and I was afraid I might get addicted.  Motrin isn't cutting it.  I called the doctor again yesterday, but haven't heard back from him.  I'll call again tomorrow if I don't hear back tonight.

I went to J's Mother's Day Tea at her school today.  Very cute little first grade function.  They read a poem and sang a song and I cried like a freaking baby.  Of course, I was the only mother crying and felt like a buffoon, but I don't apologize for being emotional.  My kids are the one thing that get me.  Everyone generally thinks I am a cold, bitchy type person, but with my kids...big ball of mush.  With adults, I don't have time for all the b.s.  I'm not a chit-chatter, I don't care to small talk.  At work, I'm there to do my job and do it well.  I can't get involved with all the crap.  I just don't care about it.  And, somehow, that makes me not a nice person.  Ah well...my friends know differently and so does my family.  Who cares what everyone else thinks?

05:19 - 2008-May-8 - post comment