PAPA'S WIFE

at our house today

• here we are in the midst of spring -today was a beautiful day - yesterday too- and we got no snow at our house on thursday but a whole bunch of the rest of Alberta did--10 inches at the farm place which is about 20 minutes from here if you are taking the way of the crow and 25 if you take the roads -
• we are living pretty quiet here unless the grand daughter and her boy who is a friend are hanging around-
• Papa David is weak and only able to walk short distances and stand for short times- the distance beyond 100 feet is now too much, standing shaving is too long- he seldom ventures any where in the house alone-
• he did have chemo again this week which is now a choice as either way does not change things - I think the chemo is now doing  more bad than good and the doctor said he will let papa decide if or if not........right now- papa is still hanging on to the chemo.
• we did want to go away some where some time where cancer did not follow but papa is now too weak to go very far.........his brother and wife with us may go for an over night somewhere close to home= it is hard because everything now is about cancer and health and papa- all our thoughts of what he can do or eat need to be considered -
• I am hanging on by the threads of my tears.....I feel so helpless to know what to do to make him comfort and joy.....sometimes I just sit and look at him - and he looks at me-- and that is our joy.
• Dogman has been running in and out all day looking for spring and a walk but he will have to chase the wind this spring
• we decided not to do any plants or gardening other than rocks this year- just too much for me to be outside too so we have some nice big rocks that I will rearrange and stick some potted plants out-
• things are different and adapting and accepting are the hard parts,,,,,but we  carry on forward with the Lord- trusting Him
• teddy bears reminds you and me that we need to have fun and yes. papa and I do still have some good laughs--mostly at his expense- he can still tease the grand kids and snitch some of their fries-
• huggles me, Meme and Papa too
• 'LITTLE THINGS'
  Dear God, please give to me
  A thankful heart for little things-
  For sunshine on my kitchen floor
  For news the postman brings;
  For memories in the making,
  Things the children say and do,
  That I will smile about, perhaps
  Some future quiet day.
  Grant me appreciation
  Of the small joys that are mine-
  The special birthday parties,
  My honeysuckle vine;
  The clean, fresh smell
  Of clothes just washed;
  The ivy on my wall,
  The children's thrilled delight
  To wake and find the first snowfall.
  For robins in the springtime,
  And autumn's crispy weather-
  For leaves that crunch,
  Friends in for lunch
  And laughter shared together.
  Give me enthusiasm
  To greet each brand new day
  With honest joy in living
  As I go my simple way;
  Let me love the little things
  and thank our Father for them when I pray.(authorunknown)