Nothing's Going to Stop Me Now

Here's Where it all starts

So, I just need somewhere to let out these feelings that I have about everything going on in my life. I'll start with the bad, and work up to the good.

Well. I was severely bulimic for about a year. Right now I suffer from bingeing and starving which is pretty depressing. I gained back most of the weight I lost from bulimia anyway, I'm 5'8 and I wear a size 8 in teen stores. I feel like this may be holding back my acting abilities, and I certainly feel like fighting the lack of confidence my bulimia caused me. I hate my mother and recently quit lacrosse, my only sport, she does not approve of this decision and it is because of this I want to prove myself SO badly.

On to the good. I have really changed as an actress and am finally starting to gain some recognition right now in my sophmore year of high school. I finally have the confidence I have always wanted, and I would do anything to suceed.

In order to achieve my goals, I would like to loose about 23 pounds by the audition day of the Fall Musical, Which is April 25. So i have a little over 2 months, and I know that I can do it if I really try.

I need somewhere to write this down so that I can let it all out instead of letting it build up inside me. I need to start counting every single calorie, and sticking to those limits because I want to achieve my goals. Remember, if the camera adds 10 pounds the stage adds 20.